CASE STUDIES- ALL MEDICINES
Modern Ancient Sanctuary retreat programs are available for public bookings starting January 2024.
Private individual and private small group retreat requests are still welcome and considered based on availability.
The case studies below are based on extracts of feedback from participants during 2018 - 2022. In exchange for complimentary private integration sessions, participants kept and shared regular journal entries to support Modern Ancient Sanctuary to follow their personal growth journey and improve the retreat framework. The prompted point in time check ins (i.e. retreat experience, ceremony experience, one month post retreat, three months post retreat and six months post retreat) are shared below.
NOTE: cases are provided for informational and interest purposes only, and do not guarantee any particular outcome or result.
Name: Caroline S
Occupation: Pricing Analyst
Life Path Number: 9
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Retreat Type: Private, small group
Retreat Length: 6 days
Sacred Medicine/s: Kambo & Bufo
Sacred Medicine Experience: 6
(Ayahuasca, San Pedro, Mushrooms)
(0 = no experience and 10 = very experienced)
KAMBO & BUFO
RETREAT EXPERIENCE My overall retreat experience with Modern Ancient was wonderful. Suya and Ama-ra are amazing guides with an incredible and inspirational story. They held a truly beautiful container for me to experience profound states of healing. They are sisters and welcomed me in as both a soul sister and blood sister. The staff were very accommodating and kept the ceremonial space peaceful and clear for our group. I loved that we all (our group, the local staff, Suya and Cara) ate meals together family style. The energy felt very grounded, safe and beautiful especially being right in the high vibes of the Amazon. I didn't know too much about Ayurveda medicine and the roots of yoga before so I learned many special things to help me connect the dots with my lifestyle and spiritual practice. I liked that they gave us the option to practice silence and awareness on the day out of the retreat. It was a good experience to hear my mind going on the inside while being in the outside world again after deep medicine work and connection. The energy healing meditations with Suya before and after the ceremonies were beautiful and mysterious! SACRED MEDICINE EXPERIENCE I am not new to psychedelics but I have never taken Kambo or Bufo before. I felt strongly drawn to Bufo after hearing about a friend’s experience. I did a lot of research but I don't think anything could have prepared me. It is a quicker experience than Ayahuasca. There's no purging but I felt it was a more intense ceremony. I didn't have any visions but I experienced the deepest feelings of divine love. I struggled in my first and third Bufo ceremonies with letting go as it comes on super quick. In those ceremonies I faced some tough emotions. This made it hard for me to fully surrender in those moments because there were difficult emotions to face and I got stuck in those feelings. My second ceremony was the best because I felt such an incredible love. I could feel and hear the music of the divine in my heart. I had a knowingness that everything is about love in this universe. God is the energy of love and i felt that in every cell of my mind and body. I was sucked through a vortex of light, and then I became a particle of light floating into bliss. Everything was so light, and I was a light particle in a much bigger field of connected light particles. I received this as the highest and purest order of love. It's very difficult to figure out how to put this experience into words, but I will never forget it. ONE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE It definitely took some time to ‘come down’ after the retreat. I withdrew from a lot of social events in the last month. I don't feel like drinking alcohol. I am regularly taking yoga classes and started reading some of the recommended books from the list in the integration guide. I feel lucky to have Suya and Ama-ra to personally talk me through some of the soul stuff. THREE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE I have felt some frustration over the past few months. I thought changes would happen quickly but that hasn't been the case. I'm accepting more that I need to have patience and trust in life. I appreciate that they gave me the heads up before about no quick fixes. I'm proudly wearing my three Kambo dots and it's a great reminder of my courage and commitment to myself. I'm unsure if it’s directly related but I don't have the right knee pain anymore. I'm becoming more aware of other people’s intentions and their purpose in my life. SIX MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE The most crazy thing that has happened is the contact from my dad. I am trying to get my head around whether it is a coincidence with the integration prayer Suya gave me to shift the energy. We haven't really talked for years. Two weeks ago he left me a long voice note out of the blue. What is happening! He was unusually nice and seemed very interested about what's going on in my life and with Dave. Then he asked to visit us!!! We've been in contact and even spoken on the phone for a quick catch up. I overlooked my relationship with my father as an ongoing healing angle but this is what's showing up for me right now. It’s actually pretty crazy. I will keep going with the prayer as you've said and see what happens. What if he actually visits us? There's a lot of emotion here and forgiveness that's coming through. I should say that I'm finally getting how to manage and direct my energy. Thank you for drilling that into my head. I'll send another update soon. Xxx
Name: Katherine B
Occupation: Herbalist & teacher
Life Path Number: 33
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
Intention: Feeling lost, low energy, no direction
Retreat Type: Private, small group
Retreat Length: 8 days
Sacred Medicine/s: Kambo & Ayahuasca
Sacred Medicine Experience: 0
(0 = no experience and 10 = very experienced)
KAMBO & AYAHUASCA
RETREAT EXPERIENCE I feel very blessed to have experienced a retreat program at Modern Ancient. The place and team are tremendously healing, and the land is beautifully presented with what they have built so far. The energy of the Amazon is powerful and it is a high vibrational place where I felt able to connect more with my spiritual side. I was safe and looked after throughout my stay that I felt sad when it was time to leave. The staff are so caring, attentive and full of love and I know I have found my spiritual family in them. I am extremely grateful to Modern Ancient for the great healing and incredible life changes that took place during and after my stay in Peru. SACRED MEDICINE EXPERIENCE The Kambo spirit of the frog was super intense and I could only handle one ceremony despite planning for three. I had no visions. I felt intense energy and went from being hot to cold frequently. I also vomited a lot. Mother Ayahuasca was gentle with me for the first two ceremonies. I felt very relaxed and open, and time seemed to stretch. I felt like I had lived in the future for years when the ceremony was only in its second hour. Still no visions during the first two ceremonies. I vomited a lot less than I did with Kambo. The third ceremony was the most challenging ever with a very deep connection to my inner self and the sacred medicine. The visions were colourful and sharp with vivid geometric shapes, patterns and other worldly images. I vomited only once during my third Ayahuasca ceremony. My rebirth experience happened during my fourth ceremony. It took place as me just knowing I had died. I physically cried about myself dying while physically walking to the bathroom and sitting on the toilet. When I re-entered the ceremony, everyone including the shaman was clapping and applauding me. I remember the feeling of being very happy and very sad at the same time. I also saw myself walking up golden steps with white doves and bright white light surrounding me. When I reached the top, there was a golden throne that I sat on. There are no words to describe the vibration I was able to reach during my 4th ceremony. I continue to feel very humbled and blessed by the grace of the medicine. ONE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE My quality of sleep drastically improved and has remained that way until now. I sleep deeper and without constantly waking up. My blood pressure and heartbeat has normalised. My migraines and cluster headaches, which were quite frequent, haven’t returned. My feel more peaceful, calm and focused. I am much more positive about life and emotionally stable in all my relationships, especially with my triggering family members and home situation. A financial opportunity arrived which I took and it has the potential to really help me to build a secure future. THREE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE My health benefits have continued. I did not have time to practice any of the post integration advice given to me while I was on retreat, until now. Apart from the time issue, I felt like my energy had to stabalise after my intense week with ceremonies at Modern Ancient, so I just let my energies take their own natural course. So three months on, I started reading the integration material and applying it to areas of my life. Lots of the material resonated with me. I remember when I was at Modern Ancient, Ama-ra mentioned life path numbers to me which I had never heard of. Based on my 33 life path number, she said I was an ancient soul, here to master myself first before helping to heal others. I resonate better with the meaning of my life path number now that I have had time to reflect on the meaning of this and look more into numerology. I started to spot my ‘life exams’ and made great efforts to pass them. I actually started having fun with it as well - like I could see what needed to change. My eating habits are good and I am happy with my weekly routine, so I did not change anything as suggested in the integration guide. I did start to pray and started slowly applied intermittent fasting after my sessions with Suya. By focusing and concentrating on passing my life exams I was able to achieve the following: -Learning what it means to forgive people and replace judgment with understanding. After my Ayahuasca ceremonies, I could feel how much the negative energies of blame and judgment blocked my heart center and stopped my flow of joy and happiness in my life. -Be present, happier and more detached. I was always thinking about the past in a ‘poor me’ way and feeling hard done by. I am trying to take responsibility for everything I attracted in my life and to apply this way of thinking to any past thoughts. This released me from blaming others. I started focusing a lot more on my present day to day life and enjoying everything I had to do in the present, from washing the dishes to dealing with difficult people at work to cleaning up the dog shit in my house. I still have future plans and do as much as I can daily to work towards them, but at the same time I found I could let go of the attachment to future plans and relationships. This was a very significant development for me which I am intrigued about, because I always had difficulty letting go as I’m a big planner type of person. But I’m slowly feeling like I can let go of the weight of planning everything in life. I'm laughing more and all my family and friends have noticed. My finances have continued to go from strength to strength which I am very pleased about. I did not expect this type of growth as money was not at all my intention. SIX MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE I am continuing with the ‘life exams’. It’s becoming a new hobby, lol. It's funny to see, but my finances continue to get better with a recent unexpected source of income. My health improvements since the retreat keep progressing and I have added some of the recommended Ayurveda diet changes. I am generally feeling more energetic and peaceful. My issues with my brother are still there but I am less triggered by him than I was before. I plan to continue working with the medicine and exploring the plants more. Looking forward to visiting Modern Ancient again, hopefully next year!
Name: P J Roberts
Life Path Number: 9
Zodiac Sign: Cancer
Intention: I want to remove my addictions
Retreat Type: Private
Retreat Length: 28 days
Sacred Medicine/s: Kambo & Iboga
Sacred Medicine Experience Level: 3
(Mushrooms, Synthetic DMT, Cannabis)
(0 = no experience and 10 = very experienced)
KAMBO & IBOGA
RETREAT EXPERIENCE I credit my new life to the team at Modern Ancient. Before the retreat I had life destroying addictions (drugs & sex) which I tried to deal with for the past 9 years. No amount of therapy or treatments helped me to fully get my life back on track. After the ceremonies, and these intense, emotional, crazy and out of this world experiences, I am living a better and positive life. It’s been a true sanctuary for me and I have had so many people ask me about my experience with you. My deepest and heartfelt gratitude to you girls as well as the whole team that took care of me during my stay at Modern Ancient. I'll be keeping my journal about my changes. I think it’s important to bring this beautiful medicine to the world so others know it’s possible to change their lives too. Thank you for checking in on me so much. Love y’all, PJ. SACRED MEDICINE EXPERIENCE Preparing for my Iboga retreat was difficult as I had to stay off the drugs and away from intimacy. I could not do that on my own, so my first week at Modern Ancient was focused on me just preparing for the medicine ceremonies. It was pretty tough and every day of the preparation week, I wanted to give up and go back home to what I knew… my fixes but both sisters did an award winning job of keeping me focused through their talks, hypnotherapy, energy healing sessions, meditations and yoga practice. I was also cleansed with tobacco smoke and other external plants and herbs which felt healing. The plant baths made a difference to how calm and controlled I felt. After my first week, I started my Kambo and Iboga ceremonies. I am trying to be as detailed as I can in the hope that it can help others to understand how things can go and what to expect. I really liked my first ceremony with Kambo and wanted to do more, but was advised that it would only be the one ceremony. I felt quite weak during the Kambo ceremony and was glad to be so well looked after by the staff. The energy was a bit strong at first but it quickly went away and I followed the advice of both the sisters who were with me during my ceremonies at Modern Ancient. I was told to surrender and stop fighting, just accept the uncomfortable feeling and surrender to the higher power and healing of the Divine and Kambo. After I surrendered including untensing my physical body I then vomited and the uncomfortable energy went. The feeling of lightness after the ceremony was something I had not felt for such a long time. It was so natural and lasted. I will never forget this amazing Kambo ceremony. I did not see or hear anything during the Kambo ceremony. What followed was four Iboga ceremonies. I was given one full on, traditional Iboga ceremony every week as well as plant baths and other herbal potions to drink. The Iboga ceremonies were extremely difficult and emotional for me. It was only during the last ceremony that I connected with the love and light I realized I had been searching for my whole life. The shaman was from Africa and I mostly remember the face and body paint, the interesting musical instrument he was playing and listening to the chanting and singing that I had never heard in my life. Every ceremony felt like an eternity and like I had left earth, gone to some other planet and then returned while being fully awake. It was so strange but also I let go enough to enjoy it without my mind going too wild. First Iboga ceremony: Had thoughts about everything and anything. It was constant and I could not control it. I felt more awake than I had ever been in my life. I felt angry and disturbed and lots of childhood stuff came up which I spoke to the girls about during the ceremony. I took their advice and let myself go. I cried, screamed and shouted during the ceremony. I could not sleep for two days after, had no appetite whatsoever and was in generally the same state. Everyone around me was so helpful and I felt very cared for. When I did manage to sleep, I slept super deep, for like over 16 hours, and had vivid dreams which included family members who had passed on. They spoke to me and gave me messages. My uncle died when I was younger and it was incredible to see him appear and feel how much he loved me as a child and even now from above. I can’t remember the last time I slept so deeply like this or for so long. When I woke up, I remember eating so much. I felt so different, lighter and happier. The difficult ceremony was so worth it as I immediately noted on awakening that I had no cravings for lust or sex. The drug craving was still there but nothing like before. I felt like I could actually block it and I noticed I was replacing that drug craving with food. I just kept eating. I felt like drinking alcohol but knew I could not and I was actually able to control that. I was given lots of nice chocolate instead! The food was different for me but seriously delicious. I am not naturally a vegan and this was something else that I struggled with while I was there. They gave me some egg dishes sometimes, which helped a lot. But what I did eat, was very delicious. Pasta and rice dishes, cakes, chips, sweet dishes, cakes, chocolate, they really had a huge selection that I liked. There are some corn drinks and fruit drinks native to Peru (pronounced ag-gar-he I think) which felt healthy and satisfied my taste buds too. Second Iboga ceremony: I had slept and eaten well after my first ceremony so I was well prepared as Ama-ra went over some of the things in the guides. The course was very helpful and answered so many questions I had about life. Lots of things started to make sense. Especially about past lives and reincarnation. My second Iboga ceremony was not as emotionally challenging as the first but it was still very difficult. This time it was about past romantic relationships and self love. I did not see anything at all or have any kind of visions, but I felt like I was somewhere else, in another energy. I was able to deal with them in the way I was being taught, for example responsibility for my own actions and non-attachment. I really am a project for myself and if I am to get better I need to work on seeing things in a new way. I had a lot of resistance that came up and was able to start changing some of my beliefs around it with help from Suya. Similar to what happened after the first ceremony, I could not sleep for two days and was bombarded by my thoughts and emotions. It was exhausting and I really felt I was having a spiritual gym workout and lifting spiritual weights. I had the same sleeping and eating pattern as described after the first Iboga ceremony. During the days after the second ceremony, after eating and sleeping, I felt a deep sadness, it was horrible and that is putting it lightly. I honestly felt like I wanted to die and escape. I cried so much and I don't know what I would have done had it not been for the help and support I had around me. I was given lots of external treatments such as plant baths, cleansing tobacco smoke and some other shamanic treatments which including a sucking out energy treatment with spiritual liquids. I found that sucking treatment quite odd and fascinating as the shaman put the liquid in his mouth and did a sucking movement into the air starting from the top of my head. It quickly reduced my sad feeling. I was stunned. But the feeling kept coming back even after the cleansing. They explained to me that I was processing a lot of emotions and past energy which is being healed and that process involves me feeling very sad. It’s normal to feel this way, very sad and like dying during such deep healing and cleansing. It was helpful to be reminded that I must not to attach to it and let it pass through me. It was explained to me that the feeling of dying was the death of some of my identity. So I practiced observing instead of reacting to the feeling of wanting to die and accepting that it was my ego dying. I made some progress there. I also prayed a lot to God with the Modern Ancient team through different chants and to Hindi gods which I learned all have a different energy. I resonated with the chant to the God Ganesha who helps you move through obstacles in your life. Eventually the negative feelings passed. It was replaced a completely natural and lasting Euphoria that I have never ever felt before. I remembered when I was a kid and had dreams and ambitions and was happy with little things like blowing bubbles. I felt like that so many times over. All my love for life came back and I felt so enthusiastic about my life and creating a better future for myself. I also started to feel blessed and thankful on a deep level. I thought a lot less about drugs and my interest in sex seemed to have gone away. The past addictions of mine felt more manageable. Through my journey, I was relieved to be able to understand my past behavior. I realized I had been distracting myself with drugs and sex to avoid dealing with issues within myself. The spirit of Iboga helped me to uncover these issues within myself. Some of the things I was not consciously aware of on my own. I needed the expanded consciousness. Third Iboga Ceremony: This was my last ceremony and I wished I could stay for longer. I felt sad leaving the retreat but they had other guests. I started to really love the jungle at this point and decided I would move out of my city apartment back home and move nearer to nature as soon as I could. My head was racing with changes that I wanted to make in my life at the start of my final Iboga ceremony. I saw some line visions and very faded and extremely blurry images that I could not make out at all. But I was happy to be seeing something! This ceremony was relaxing compared to my past ones! I let all thoughts and feelings just past through me. During the ceremony I had this feeling that the physical world is not my real home and I had gone to my real home energetically to help me heal and understand myself more so I could deal with the physical world and life in a much better way. It was crazy how I was awake and at the same time I was somewhere else, not on this Earth and I was going between the two places. Ama-ra told me I was closer to my ‘higher self’ during the Iboga ceremonies and my ‘higher self’ was with me and at the same time lived in another higher vibrational location. Well that would have never made any sense to me before my Iboga ceremonies, but after experiencing this I can see how that might workout. After my final ceremony, I didn’t manage to get much sleep at all until I left Peru and got home. My mind was very over active and I was already thinking about rearranging my life in a big way. I was craving fish and seafood after 4 weeks of being mainly vegan while I was at Modern Ancient. Before the retreat, I ate a lot of red meat. I don't know if my craving for drugs, sex and alcohol were not attacking me because I was distracted with other things or if they had gone for good. Anyway I’ve promised myself to continue with the routines and recommendations I got from the team. ONE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE As agreed I emailed Suya about where I was. I had been following some of her Ayurveda advice about my diet and working on my ‘stories’ and limited beliefs exercises. This helped me to stay aware of the negative energies which could block my progress. I was also meditating and chanting to Ganesha biweekly. I included weight lifting exercises into my busy schedule. Feeling physically strong was helping me mentally feel strong too. I was eating fish and seafood and had cut meat out of my diet 90% of the time, just because I did not feel like eating it. I have not touched drugs or alcohol since coming home. My sex addiction isn’t controlling me like before. My energy for life and positivity since the retreat hasn’t left me. It was great to have the check ins from Suya and her enthusiasm to celebrate my small daily wins with me! Thanks girl! THREE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE I am continuing with my new diet and still watching my negative thoughts and stories as they come up. I'm replacing them with the list I created with Suya. I had some Reiki healing done. I still have not touched the drugs and I deal with any cravings that come up from time to time using the mental exercises and affirmations given to me on retreat. I have had some alcohol but mainly for social reasons and not because I am addicted. My physical appearance has improved a lot and I have more self confidence. My energy levels are higher than before. Some of my friends have not contacted me since my Iboga ceremonies and I thought they cared. At first I was disappointed but maybe they are meant to fall away on their own like you said they might (because of the vibration changes). SIX MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE For the 6 month check in: I'm exercising pretty good. I am praying more to Ganesha. We're buddies now ;-) I was inspired by my coaching with Suya and have been learning about ancient India, past lives and 'parallel dimensions'. I'm loving it. I notice double numbers and have dreams about sacred geometry. I am reading more on the internet about all this stuff and it’s blowing my mind. Helping me to understand my experiences even after all this time. I feel connected to my spiritual path and it FEELS SO FREAKING GOOD AND HONEST. Suya – my alcohol cravings are totally gone for now. I’m experiencing more self control and trusting myself to make good decisions for me. I have not visited any more healers cos I feel good with where I'm at. I met someone and we're still dating. We both love watching comedy shows together and spending time in nature. I make more money and I save more money too. I'm feeling all good and confident about my personal and work goals. Thank you so much Modern Ancient. I have no words that I can write for your reviews that can really say what my heart is feeling. Gonna try and do myself right to keep up this level of motivation. THANK YOU GOD & GANESHA. BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL. Love always, PJ.
Nationality: German & US
Life Path Number: 7
Zodiac Sign: Virgo
Intention: Personal growth & career direction
Retreat Type: Private, small group
Retreat Length: 6 days
Sacred Medicine/s: Kambo & Bufo
Sacred Medicine Experience: 3
(0 = no experience and 10 = very experienced)
KAMBO & BUFO
RETREAT EXPERIENCE The experience surpassed my expectations in a way which is hard to fully describe in words. I was opening up to energy work, and consciously trying to change my belief systems, but I never could have imagined the extent of awakening that my Bufo ceremonies provided. This is a high-quality client service team who make you feel welcome from the beginning. It’s a family business and there is an ease and authenticity about the way they work, and with each other. The team on the ground were simply fantastic. They smiled all the time and nothing was too much to help me with, including washing my muddy jungle stuff! Thank you so much Nelvin! It was pretty awesome to be in the middle of the jungle. The whole retreat was truly an experience of a lifetime. I loved riding in the motor taxi and it felt magical taking a boat ride on the Amazon river. I felt safe from airport pick up to drop off. Neshani was very patient and helped me with some travel hiccups but in the end everything went smoothly. Despite my initial weariness, I was glad I had my mentor Suya by my side who I have great respect and trust in. I have already made significant changes in my life working with Suya for the six months prior to my medicine experiences, but the retreat experience helped me to directly break into my heart and allowed me to open myself up in a way that would have felt shameful before. I am not good at crying in public, and hold a very serious demeanor at times but during my experience at Modern Ancient I was able to fully let go of my inhibitions. I felt free in my own true expression, and it felt right. It's the first time in my adult life that I felt a high level of trust for life and commitment to believe in a higher power or energy force. I fully recommend working with Suya, Ama-ra and the team especially if it’s your first time. Everyone is very compassionate and understanding, but firm and practical. They will help you face your fears and develop the courage to choose a new perspective. While not an easy ride, this is the sort of journey you take if you want to really see what needs to be changed. Importantly, we laughed so much on retreat even after the difficult experiences. It was amazing to have a really and down to earth, warm and fun team as a reminder of life's simple things. SACRED MEDICINE EXPERIENCE My first Bufo ceremony was difficult. I couldn't quite inhale as much as directed from the pipe. Eventually I was able to, then I fell back and passed out before I knew it. When I returned to a waking consciousness I felt the presence of someone I had lost and emotional trauma. This was overwhelming. At first, I couldn't cope and thought I was going crazy. The pain was unbearable and I started to panic and hyperventilate. Suya calmed me down and guided me back to a regular breathing pattern. I wasn't expecting to feel what I felt. In my mind, the loss was not that present but, in my heart, it was plentiful there. I obviously had not come to terms with it. Needless to say, the medicine went right to my wounded heart. My second ceremony was beautiful, dancing with lilies and in a complete state of bliss and connection to all that is. I could not do the third Bufo ceremony or a second Kambo ceremony. I know I could have prepared better with my diet and taking care of myself. All your mental and physical energy is needed and I greatly underestimated that despite being advised many times. ONE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE It's been a busy month with work and social commitments. I've found it quite challenging to adjust back. I am still processing the loss, and all the difficult emotions and heartbreak that comes with the situation. I'm trying to be gentle and understanding with myself. It’s been hard to find the time over the holidays but in some ways being busy is a good distraction from grief. I have also felt disconnected from some of my close family and friends because it's tough to explain what I went through. I'm grateful I have a couple of good friends who know this journey and have provided solid support. Meditation just isn’t working out for me right now. I hope to get back into it soon. THREE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE Looking back, my retreat program opened me up to a part of myself that I had abandoned. I have started understanding how to ‘heal my inner child’. Also, I first thought the medicine journey would give me the clarity to define my career goals more clearly. In fact, I have been questioning my true purpose and whether my corporate life is where my true happiness lies. The aftermath is an exploration of a deeper spiritual truth. I am reading so much and on a greater path of self-discovery to learn more about my soul’s journey. I see that the medicine gave me exactly what I was subconsciously asking for – a deeper connection with myself, rather than some immediate change. I am slowly feeling more confident about being on a spiritual path and I trust that this is actually just the beginning of a longer journey for me. I'm working on trying to let go instead of needing to know everything right away i.e. learning a practice of surrender by allowing things to organically unfold. I'm aware of my need to control or know things when actually I don't need to be that way at all or stress myself out. It is very uncomfortable to practice from this perspective but also very liberating. SIX MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE The changes have been subtle emotional and mental shifts. I can feel my heart opening up more in everyday situations. Sometimes I cry for no reason but I am not sad. At other times I am overwhelmed with gratitude and for the people in my life, my experiences and myself. I am working with my affirmations from Suya almost everyday. Also, I have created an altar and have become consistent with using my gratitude jar.
Name: J Lambert
Occupation: Care worker
Nationality: English living in Spain
Life Path Number: 32
Zodiac Sign: Aries
Intention: To be better & healthier
Retreat Type: Private
Retreat Length: 14 days
Sacred Medicine/s: Kambo & Iboga
Sacred Medicine Experience: 0
(0 = no experience and 10 = very experienced)
KAMBO & IBOGA
RETREAT EXPERIENCE I am writing this review with such gratitude and awe that these ‘sacred medicines’ exist to help people like me. I came to Modern Ancient physically, spiritually and emotionally worn out and confused. When I left, I felt like my soul had been properly nourished for the first time. Confusion was replaced with clarity, my minor health problems and depression disappeared and I felt grounded, new and reborn. Just so ready to face the world and tackle anything. It was transformational and life changing as many have said already. The process of clearing and healing during the ceremonies was a bit challenging, but not as much as I first thought. I feel like a lot of people would be able to handle it if prepare well and take this journey seriously. It is important to surrender because it makes the process flow better. The lovely team at Modern Ancient really make the process easy to understand. The integration advice made sense after. It helped me unearth my inner pain and the reasons why I had blocks in my life. Before I came to Modern Ancient, I did not have anything particularly wrong with me, however I probably had an eating issue because I ate at all hours of the day, even getting up night to snack on something. I also felt bored and restless in life. I felt depressed with my general routine and relationship with my partner as he did not understand me. He also tried to leave me more than three times in a year and I begged him to say. Looking back, I can see I had self-worth issues. I was not happy with myself and my attachment to him and other things in life that I could not seem to let go of. I also suffered from headaches and general stress, lack of energy and motivation with things that I wanted to do, like exercise and healthy eating for example. My work colleague and good friend recommended Suya and Modern Ancient retreat in Peru to me. She attended in 2019 and in her own words had "one of the most meaningful experiences" of her life. I noticed she lost so much weight after Peru and was a healthier person who was able to leave toxic situations, which of course was of great interest to me. To start booking a retreat with Modern Ancient, I was asked to complete a quick medical screening form. I passed this and then they gave me a very detailed form online that asked a lot about my personal life, feelings and past events. I had a video chat with Ama-ra Sen so she could vet me and “connect with my energy and higher-self”. Prior to attending the 14 day retreat suggested to me by Modern Ancient based on the answers I gave them, I had to follow some strict eating rules for a week. I am not a vegan or vegetarian, so it was very challenging, but I managed it for most of the week. I was actually quite scared and nervous that week about taking Kambo and Iboga as well as coming to Peru alone because it was all new to me. I decided to email Modern Ancient as I nearly cancelled my retreat, but they were very helpful and reassuring and explained that it’s normal to be so nervous. It was comforted to know that I would be picked up from the airport in Iquitos and accompanied for the whole of my retreat, including being dropped off at the airport when the retreat ended. I had no plans to stay on in Iquitos because I was coming to Peru only for the healing program. After the retreat, I can say that I didn't have to worry about anything! I was picked up and taken to the beautiful jungle retreat! It’s a lovely place. Very well maintained and constructed. Modern and comfortable in an Amazon rainforest setting like they said. The energy is peaceful and positive so I felt comfortable from the moment I arrived and met the whole team. I was taken care of exceeding well on retreat and felt a bit spoilt and over attended to actually! For example, during the ceremony, when I purged, I was surprised to see three people around me within seconds. One was holding my bucket, the other one was holding toilet paper so I could blow my nose and another person was holding a glass of water. I did not expect the quality level of care and attention taken at Modern Ancient. We went on a boat trip down the Amazon river and saw some pink dolphins and some exotic birds and animals in another part of Iquitos and it was beautiful and charming all at once. As promised, I was accompanied by the retreat team at all times and the people in Iquitos seemed very sweet and friendly. I did not experience anything worrying when out and about in Iquitos. Suya explained that we were in the tourist areas and they are generally quite safe. I did not plan to stay on in Iquitos after my retreat, but I ended up doing just that! I explored the markets and shops and purchased a few Ayahuasca embroidery cloths and Ayahuasca chains. I am really pleased with my decision to come to Iquitos and with my experience at Modern Ancient. It was extraordinary, transformative, deep and awakening. I recommend the team and sisters at Modern Ancient to anyone who is interested in this type of healing work. SACRED MEDICINE EXPERIENCE The first sacred medicine I was given was Kambo by Ama-ra. Two dots on my right arm. She felt my heart beating fast and decided not to do the dots on my left arm as it was too near my heart. It was my first time with Kambo and I was really scared. The strong pulsing and energy started in my head and it felt like I had an energetic head brace on that was clamping in towards the center of forehead. So uncomfortable and I did not know what to do. Ama-ra told me to breathe and surrender to the uncomfortable feeling and think of the green tree frog. She showed me a pic. Prior to the ceremony, Ama-ra had helped me understand the process and how I could surrender. One of the most important things she told me to do before any sacred medicine ceremony is to program my mind through repetition of words into thinking that I am open. I needed to forget anything I have ever learned or think is true and I need to come before the sacred medicine like a baby, who knows nothing. Ama-ra explained that this clears a lot of space within a person and the sacred medicine can come in and heal, re-program and teach us. A lot of people are full up and this blocks the medicine being able to come into them. This is the fight that they bring to the medicine and this is why they struggle and suffer with the energy in the ceremony. So, I surrendered and just let myself feel uncomfortable during Kambo, thinking to myself that I don't even know what uncomfortable is anymore. I prayed to the spirit of the frog, my higher-self and God as a divine energy as instructed by Ama-ra. I purged immediately after and felt a lot better. The uncomfortable feeling and ring around my head was still there but it was a lot less and I purged a few more times until it left altogether. It was over quite quickly after the dots were put on my arm, not more than 40 minutes I would say. My head hurt and I felt really weak after, but lighter and cleared out energetically. I lay in the maloka for a while with soothing music. Ama-ra then took me to the forest and I bathed under a big tree with a mixture of plants to clear my energy field. I definitely felt so much better after the plant bath, the weak feeling went and I immediately felt great and energized. I spent the rest of the day relaxing and talking to the staff, eating and taking naps. The following day I woke up feeling fantastic! I did more plant treatments in the morning with Ama-ra after some sungazing. This was then followed by yoga with Suya, learning about integration and sacred medicine and doing the exercise sheets. Some of the questions made me really think hard about who I wanted to be. The same day, before my first Iboga ceremony, I did a fire ceremony. I had to write a list of all the negative things I want gone from my life that was signed and dated by me. This was burnt in the fire while praying to the fire. First Iboga ceremony: This took place with an incredible Iboga Shaman, Suya, Ama-ra and the ceremony helpers. Anyone would feel the Shaman’s mighty energy if they were next to him! He was dressed in leaves, spiritual beads and red and white body powder. He looked incredible, like part of the jungle! He did not really speak to me and just smiled. He concentrated on praying, singing and playing an instrument. I offered food to my ancestors after a gratitude prayer and then we started the ceremony. I did not feel fearful when taking Iboga as I had programmed myself into acceptance mode using the guidance from the sisters. I was given a bit of powdered Iboga on my tongue first and it tasted very bitter. I connected with the energy and felt my forehead starting to pulse. I was given more Iboga in capsule form bit by bit for the first few hours of the ceremony. I felt the energy of Iboga as rushes of thoughts that bombarded me and I dealt with them in the way I had been taught. As the ceremony progressed, I had amazing visions. They were like perfect drawn pictures in shades of grey but they were clear and it was so amazing that Iboga zoomed in on my visions to bring my attention to parts of my visions that were confusing. For example I saw this one vision of me jumping over a wall head first and it confused me. The vision would not change until I got why I was being show it. I saw a zoom in of my head going over the wall. I realised that Iboga was telling me I was jumping into the situation (I was thinking about prior to that vision) too fast without thinking about it properly first. When I had that realisation, an actual green tick appeared and the vision changed! I found this so fascinating! I was given other tests while the ceremony was in progress. I started judging the sound of one of the forest birds as it was so loud and annoying. My ‘higher-self’ which felt like an inner guiding voice who was a part of me and apart from me at the same time started telling me about my ‘life exam’ with the bird to help me balance judgment. The inner guidance explained that Iboga, my higher-self and the higher-self of the bird had all collaborated to give me my ‘life exam’ so I can practice balancing judgment. LOL was all I thought then! The inner guidance kept repeating itself until I took the ‘life exam’ seriously and started to let go of judgment of the bird in the step by step way that I had been taught. And then the green tick appears again! I felt like I was in school, well I am, life school LOL. Similar ‘life exams’ were given to me throughout the ceremony. I also saw the spirit of Iboga as a beautiful and traditional African lady from the shoulders up. I was shocked to see her and felt so blessed and humbled. I could not stop saying thank you and feeling so grateful. Her image came from behind me and then I saw it in front of me. Every time I got a question right, her image appeared in front of me again from behind and then moved to the upper right side of my vision and then disappeared. The ceremony was a lot of fun and I felt so awake and switched on, like I had never ever felt before in my entire life. I got all the answers to the questions right and eventually passed the tests eventually. I think the ‘Trinity Program’ approach and mindset training Suya gave me in advance and on retreat helped with my perspective of things. The one thing that was repeated in the ceremony that the integration program also teaches is taking full responsibility. IN EVERYTHING. After the ceremony, I thought that people who struggled with taking full responsibility for everything they attract will have a super hard time if they did a full Iboga ceremony. It would be better for them to start working on changing their thinking first. Ama-ra explained my life path number to me, which I had not heard of. She explained that a person with a life path number 8 or 44 is a master number and a very old soul who has lots of practice at life as they have reincarnated so many times. This is why old souls pass ‘life exams’ in Iboga ceremonies as they have had lots of practice. Master numbers need to remember how to master themselves first and then they can go on to help others master themselves. Well, most of what I remember from Modern Ancient and all my ceremony experiences clicked. I honestly felt that the whole retreat experience helped me to remember what I somehow subconsciously knew. I needed this push upwards. The powerful ceremony was full of visions from my childhood, family members who had passed on, me seeing myself looking at myself with lots of love, african music spirits and nature spirits.. I also saw visions of things which were kept from me and I checked the information out after my retreat and it was verified. I was more than shocked. I understand more about energy fields and multi-dimensional existences now. The harp instrument the Shaman played in the ceremony was very upbeat and not a sound that I was used to, but it was really enjoyable and put me into the journeying state. He also sung and prayed in an African language, his voice was very powerful and healing. I did not need any help during my first ceremony especially with me being so wide awake. There was a fire burning outside the Maloka which felt very healing every time I went closer to it. I did not want to look in the mirror during the ceremony even though the Shaman, Ama-ra and Suya tried to convince me it was a good idea. I felt a bit scared just by thinking about it, so I gave the mirror part a miss. The ceremony lasted for hours and hours, it was easily over 12 hours. I felt completely normal and awake but at the same time felt like I was in a higher vibration, in full control and very grounded. I had a distinct knowing of remembering that this world is the dream and our real home is the astral plane, which is where our soul goes when we sleep and when we die. I drank a lot of water during the ceremony as the Iboga was making me feel dehydrated and my head started to hurt. After around 12 hours, the visions started to fade, but I could see ‘light reflections’ when I blinked and lots of faint line visions. The wide awake feeling and constant thoughts continued well into the next day and I could not sleep that night. The following day, I did more plant treatments with the team as well as other cleansing remedies such as external natural tobacco smoke cleansing and spiritual plant powders blown up my nose. I managed to get some sleep on the second day after the ceremony. In between the second day after my first Iboga ceremony and my second Iboga ceremony, there was a big, negative, horrible and sad suicidal feeling that came over me. It was very unexpected and deep. The explanation given to me by Ama-ra and Suya made sense. They both explained the ‘ego’ of humans and that the feeling of death and dying was because the imbalanced part of my ego was dying and being reborn. They explained that it was a very important and profound part of my healing process and that it would not last. We did a lot of integration work while I was feeling that way and I accessed a lot of my inner strength. I was actually able to detach from the deep sadness and not let it take over me or react to it by thinking about actual suicide. But, it did make me wonder about how people would deal with these feelings that came up after Iboga if they did not know why they felt that way or how to deal with it. When I started sleeping properly after my first ceremony, my dreams became very vivid with lots of messages and interesting themes. Second Iboga ceremony: My second Iboga ceremony was different to my first one. I understood that my ‘higher-self’ took away a lot of my visions as I was being distracted by them and I needed to go within myself more, which I did. A lot of reasons why my mind, body and soul were misaligned were revealed to me by mother Iboga. I think I would have never been able to uncover these reasons myself without her help. I was quite weak during my second ceremony and purged uncontrollably three times. I still did not feel like looking in the mirror during the ceremony. I saw lots of images that I could not make out flash by and I knew it was part of my energy being cleansed and healed. I went through many emotions from deep suicidal sadness to deep unconditional love, gratitude, joy and forgiveness. I felt the beautiful ‘Christ consciousness’ and found the whole process fascinating, like I was sampling all available emotions given to us by the Divine for the experience of it. It was a magical, humbling and an experience that is hard to put into words. My sleeping pattern was similar to how I was after my first Iboga ceremony. I continued with exercises given to me by Ama-ra and Suya. I sat with Suya for guided energy healing mediations, yoga and practiced some routines explained from Ayurveda medicine. I have found them useful since returning home especially if I have a cold or feeling run down. We also went for an amazing boat ride on the amazon river and visited an animal sanctuary which was relaxing after the intense ceremony. Before my retreat ended, all remnants of sad and heavy energy left me. I just felt a joy and happiness that I have never ever felt in this incarnation. I left to go back home in a state of ecstasy and bliss. I felt ready for all the greatness that I felt was coming to me! ONE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE I continued with the integration exercises and became more aware of my life exams in every situation. Life exams kept popping up constantly to test me and give me a chance to practice balancing anything that needed to be balanced. I did not want my euphoric state to leave me after leaving the retreat, so I continued with the hypnotherapy, NLP and pranic energy higher-self exercise. I also started wearing crystal necklaces and sleeping with crystals in my bed. I generally managed to keep my vibration high and observed a real difference with my reactions, habits and attachment to things. For example, I used to drink lots of cappuccinos every day, but now I don't want even one. My eating habits have changed and I have more control over them. I no longer eat late at night. I started practicing intermittent fasting and found I could do that easier than I thought. I feel like the mental block has almost gone. I no longer suffer from headaches, lack of motivation or low energy. I am better at focusing on my goals and trying to make the best use of my time, I’m quite happy being vegetarian now. I no longer feel like eating fish and I am using Suya’s smoothie and juicing recipes. My partner and I went our separate ways and I did not hang onto him or stop him leaving the relationship this time. We ended our relationship quite amicably. From my side, it felt natural and the right thing to do. I have decided to stay single for a bit, which was something I could not do before. THREE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE My vibe is still high. For me, being without a partner meant more free time and a lot less stress. I have started exercising a lot and I am so pleased with my energy levels and consistency. Before my retreat program, I would never have had the energy, motivation, focus or time to do the things I have taken on right now. One of the things Mother Iboga showed me was that my lack of self love and low self esteem was due to me being bullied as a child and called racist names growing up. I then looked outside myself for compliments and relied on attention from guys to feel good about myself. I could not handle rejection or had the strength to detach from unhealthy relationships and situations because I had not dealt with my soul pain, which had a lot to do with my childhood and growing up. Being stuck in unhealthy life loops is stressful and it tired me out mentally and physically. Dealing with my soul pain is not something I could have done on my own. I am 100% certain that without the Kambo and Iboga ceremonies, I would have been stuck in the same loops my whole life. I guess I would have improved a bit during this lifetime if I made the effort, but I don't think it would have been any time soon. SIX MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE I had one low point, but I am doing well and my eating habits and better sleep is helping keep me energised. Exercising, juicing and intermittent fasting are generally part of my daily routine. I am noticing that people who I was close to are not in my life that frequently anymore. I've met new, more positive people instead. I feel better about my body and motivated to look after my skin. My skin and hair look fantastic and I feel a higher energy level. I have always liked my job looking after people, caring for them and making them better. But now, I love my job and see the impact I make on other people's lives. I realise it really is my life’s calling and I no longer want to change my career path. I feel motivated to do some charity work and adopt a cat in the near future. I realised that I have accepted aging and death and it does not scare me like it used to. I trust more in a divine plan and timing for me and for all of us. I’m moving deeper into a path of surrender, and learning how to hand over control of my life to the divine and all knowing. I’m also very grateful for all the information I received on my retreat which was generous with many great recommendations.
Life Path Number: 5
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Intention: Heal trauma
Retreat Type: Private
Retreat Length: 11 weeks
Sacred Medicine/s: Kambo, Ayahuasca and a 'Plant Dieta (Chirisanango / pure version)'
Sacred Medicine Experience: 0
(0 = no experience and 10 = very experienced)
KAMBO - AYAHUASCA & A 'CHIRISANANGO PLANT DIETA'
RETREAT EXPERIENCE It brings tears to my eyes every time I think about my past and where I was going to end up. I was not able to sleep at night. The images haunted me. The meds only helped me so much and my health was quickly going down There was no peace for me and I just wanted to leave this war torn planet. I attempted to but it was not my time to leave because my mom discovered me just as I was bleeding into hell after my suicide attempt. What followed after I physically recovered was nothing I would have considered before. I am practically an atheist. My mom is a woman of God and a believer in faith healing. She convinced me to go to Peru. It was not that hard to convince me really, I had decided I did not want to live any more. I don't even know where I went at the time, I only remember my mom taking me somewhere and being by my side. Only after my plant medicine journey and regaining the will to live, did I start to take an interest in the retreat center I was at. I had a few things going on: Immune system disorder, PTSD, deep and fatal depression, fear of most things, recreational drug addiction, alcohol addiction, insomnia, sex addiction, food addiction, aggressive and physically violent behavior, negative entity attachment, no belief or faith in God or positive energy. Times were pretty bad. SACRED MEDICINE EXPERIENCE The challenge started with me needing to go cold turkey to be able to take the sacred medicines. I had to come off my meds and sleeping tablets for at least two and a half weeks. I managed a week at home and then went to Modern Ancient in Peru for the remaining time. During that time, to calm me down, they gave me plant baths, blowed tobacco smoke on me and gave me plant remedies to drink. Also, they put me on a vegetarian diet. I'm a meat and potatoes guy so imagine that! The shamans there also prayed for me, sung songs and gave me ha-pe ceremonies. This calmed me down a lot and was just enough to get me to the ceremony stage without needing my anti-depressants or sleeping tablets. I still could not sleep and hardly slept at all. After the two and a half weeks were up, I was given Kambo first and just felt weird throughout the experience and threw up pretty bad. During the ‘purging’ as they say, I also drank water like the world would run out of it. The following evening, I had my first Ayahuasca ceremony. And then I knew there must be a God looking out for me somewhere. It gave me the most peace that I had ever experienced in my whole life. It was the first time I was able to relax in safety and rest in the arms of what felt like a powerful mother. It was like I had been resting in her arms for decades, but in reality I was told it was only a couple of hours that had passed. I also felt myself dying while being released from those motherly arms and I felt like she gave birth to me in a way that I remembered but I know I really did not have that kind of experience ever in my life. I did not see anything in the ceremony, no visions or anything like that. Everything I experienced was through deep feelings. I was completely conscious but felt pretty different but still like the same person if that makes any sense. During the other Ayahuasca ceremonies that followed after more Kambo ceremonies, I cried, screamed, shouted and threw up a lot. I was glad to have people around me who did their best to support my experiences. I thought they would be freaked out by me. I found out later that this is not unusual in ceremonies and that type of behavior is actually to release all the negativity and so-called ‘demons’ (which I do not believe in). The plant diet for 4 weeks was the hardest thing there. I lost it a few times with the lack of food, strict rules and nothing to distract me. It was pretty boring. All I remember is seeing leaves, forest and more leaves. I apologized after for shouting and saying rude things to the staff who never acted surprised in any way during my episodes. I found all the chakra information boring at the time and during the meditations I fell asleep. I think that was to do with my low energy combined with my little interest in spirituality etc on the plant diet. The plant diet itself was intense and the Chirisanango made me shake and vibrate. I took a lot of cold showers and found myself talking in my mind. Towards the end of the plant diet, I started to feel how I did when I was a young boy, when I was happy playing with my toy cars and going fishing with my dad. Forgotten memories of highschool and my high school sweetheart Sarah came back to me, happier fun times with friends and girls. I constantly dreamed of myself studying and the walls of my high school. After being on the plant diet for two weeks, I started to come out of a big blur. I realized that I was actually doing good for the first time in a very long time. I cried every day straight for a week and found I could not talk. My words would not come out. I did not want to eat or drink either. The helpful and extra caring staff were always around me, but I really wanted to be on my own and left alone to cry. They did eventually leave me alone when they realized. After my eyes could not puff up any more and I had no more water left in my body to cry, I stopped and realized I could sleep. The staff told me I slept for two days without moving and they had to check on me to see if I was breathing. The most vivid and super enjoyable memory I have of being at that retreat is eating like never before after waking up from my two day sleep marathon. The food, although delicious and filling (and it did the trick when it was needed), was disappointingly vegan, but I realized my craving for beef had disappeared. I ate like I was saving my life and really enjoyed it. My mom stayed there with me but the whole experience was a blur. She was with me when I was eating and was crying when eating with me. It was really amazing for both of us. I was still in my head and not fully realizing the change process that was happening until I had a meeting with someone at the retreat who let me know I had not taken my sleeping tablets, medication or drugs for weeks. She also showed me a video of myself at the beginning of the retreat and it was strange to see myself in that state. It’s strange, it’s like I remember the old me but I don't associate with that me any more. I was very rude to both Ama-ra and Suya at the beginning without realizing the impact of my behavior or words but they kept on believing in me. I later found out they lost a brother to suicide. If there is a god then he brought me to the right people. I received incredible compassion from them both during my time at Modern Ancient. Suya was with me only for a week but the whole retreat team from the ceremony helpers to construction workers and cooks were great throughout my entire stay. Suya gave me remote energy healing sessions which was a very crazy experience as I could feel tingling sensations in my throat. I was coughing up mucus for days after so I asked to stop some of the sessions. Ama-ra gave me crystals to put on my forehead. I learned and practiced sun gazing with her. I know I cried and had a lot of anger. I was glad to hear this was part of some negative energy release therapy. I did not feel like going out for jungle walks when there were other guests at the center during my stay. I was at Modern Ancient about three months with my mom. I was offered Amazon river trips as well as visiting animals. I said no as I did not feel like it. ONE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE I’ve been born again. I have a second chance at my life. I continue to feel that way. Since the retreat, I relax a lot more, chill more and smile more. I also sleep peacefully. I don't feel angry and violent like I used to and I do things I enjoy. My memories of my time at war are still there but they feel like lifetimes ago. The memories don't feel so close to me any more or affect me in a very negative way. I had some healing and after care sessions with Suya which helped me relax and calm down my nervous system. My immune system disorder, which was probably because of my eating and drinking habits, has improved. I realized that eating red meat was a major contributor to the worsening of my condition. My nutrition has changed also thanks to understanding Ayurveda medicine from Suya, but I am still a newbie to it. I have a lot more control over my sex addiction physically but mentally it’s still there. My suicidal thoughts come now and again but I no longer feel alone and they pass quickly. I learned not to get stuck in them. I go for a walk, call a friend or listen to a guided meditation. THREE MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE I continue to go forward with my progress. I like the concept of God and have a small interest in the chakras and how energies work. I decided to take Suya’s advice and be open to work with a divine energy and this has helped me with the addiction I was still struggling with in my mind after the retreat. I am grateful to be on this path in my life. I owe this to my mom for believing in me. I’m sending so much gratitude from my heart to the retreat team. They took care of me pretty good and deserve gold medals. I felt so loved, cared for and accepted. I never thought people could love strangers so much. It was a challenging and amazing experience. BUT, it is not one I wish to repeat again. I recommend sacred medicine healing to anyone that needs a new life and to heal trauma. Or to find god. I speak to family and friends about my experiences and can’t recommend Modern Ancient enough to them. I still have the healing sessions with Suya and this helps me to feel peaceful and calm. This is what is most important to me in my life. Peace and calm. Something is shifting inside because I am feeling very different but I can’t quite figure it out. SIX MONTH CHECK-IN AFTER RETREAT EXPERIENCE My progress is good. It’s all good. I am blessed, grateful, peaceful and calm. I know my mom is my guardian angel. You asked about ‘coincidences’ or unexpected things that have happened. Well, surprisingly, my ex came back into my life. We are giving it another go. Her children now feel like my own children which is a complete change from my attitude before. Maybe I am finally getting into that ‘oneness energy’! She is like a diamond in my rough. I love and appreciate her more than words can describe. Thank you to the loving team at Modern Ancient, Ama-ra and Suya and all they go through to make people’s lives count again. I wish you and the team all the best and so much success on your mission with doing god’s work and raising consciousness on planet earth.
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